Friends

When I tell people I have no friends they look at me funny

Like if it's the easiest thing in the world.

I'm an introvert, I'm depressed and now I'm starting to hate most people.

I think of secondary school and my days of having a 'group' of friends

Those are over now.

Just wish I had someone to talk to. Someone to hold me. Someone to care.

No, all I get are fucking 5 minute Whatsapp convos with people who can't even be bothered to check to see if I'm still alive the next day.

Who forget me all day then fucking message me at 11 to say hi.

Dumb cunt. I'm not your friend clearly, why would I be. You're definitely not mine.

Alone forever. Forever alone.

Didn't bother me much then but now without you everything else is gone.




My thoughts are disorganised and my hands are shaking.

Time to talk to my phone but even that doesn't understand me.