Liar

You're lying to me. Right now. How could you? After telling me all that shit about how I get you. I'm so pissed off right now.

No one Listens to Me

Not a fucking soul.

Still feel like a misunderstood teenager.

Praying feels pointless.

And I hate this job with every fibre of my being.

This thing

It is really disheartened to hear the one you love describe your relationship as 'this thing we have'.

Guess you don't miss the way things were after all. Almost like you don't care if someone else comes along.

At times I feel like your concubine/tutor. I deserve better. I will get better. There is a time limit on this arrangement.

Distance

I'm feeling so distant from you. Seems like you become more of stranger to me everytime i see you. I feel like ending this 'thing'with you; whatever it is. You're not meeting my needs anymore and i don't feel like i come first in your life. After nearly 4 years I should. I deserve better. I am not going to settle.

I'm sick

I'm sick. You're quite aware that i'm sick yet you haven't even messaged me all day. Seriously? Do I not mean anything to you? Can you not even check to see if I'm still alive? Yet you can message other people. I bet you weren't ignoring your 'friends'; you know those hypocrites who piss you off so much. Fuck this I'm done.

Fucking vs making love

It appears I can't have sex without an emotional connection. Well i can but it doesn't feel the same. I need him to tell me that he loves me in order for it to feel truly good. Although I have no problems with other things...sigh.

This situation is so messed up. Why doesn't he see how good we are together? How right it is? When will things go back to the way they were?

Hate

I hate them

I want to fucking kill them

They hate me and they're slowly driving me insane. Then again it isn't so slow any more.

Can feel my sanity slipping away. Crazy crazy so fucking crazy.

Crazy enough to kill them or me.

When will it end?

When will the pain stop before my heart stops or the blood drops?