Crushes

Is it ok to have a crush in a relationship? Cause I kinda have one on this guy... well its not really a crush. I don't mean those intense bouts of infatuation that occurred in secondary school.

He doesn't make my knees weak or my heart go pitterpat (ah memories of R...)

I guess i'm just plain old attracted to him but I'd never act on it. Plus he thinks of me as a friend anyway. He's one of those funny flirty guys that you never take seriously but sometimes I wonder if he is?

And if he didn't think of me as a friend what would I do? I'd never cheat on S and all I wonder about is kissing him. No I'm not having thoughts about sex with him (that would be too weird) Just one kiss... but then if we did what would happen after...What would would be the consequences of my actions. I'm too responsible at times. :(

Starting to wonder if I'm missing out. Not a good sign. You need to step up S before someone takes you out.